I ran a marathon. Most likely I will never run another one. But at least I did it once. I don't know why, but "run a marathon" was on my bucket list. I think it all started when I ran my first half and saw the marathoners and was inspired by them. Every half I ran after that made me think of what an accomplishment it would be to run a full. When I turned 30 I figured I'd better think about the marathon soon because it would only be harder the older I got (I know, depressing thought, but true). I wasn't feeling up to it that summer though (stupid postpartum depression!) and so this year, my 31st year, was it.
I signed up and posted on Facebook that I was going to run a marathon this year. I figured by making it public it would be harder to back out. And it worked! I stuck to my four and a half month training plan and actually ran the entire 26.2 miles. But not without some set backs.
The first time I ran 15 miles I got injured. Shin splints and they were brutal! I took the next two weeks off, skipping my 16 mile long run and my 10 mile recovery long run. When I started running again, I still had horrible shin splints. At the end of the week I decided to cut my planned 18 mile run back to 8 miles. After that I ran a 20 mile long run on Labor Day. The next three weeks were my "taper" weeks and boy did I taper! As in, I only ran twice. My shin splints were so bad it hurt just to stand in the shower! I was so worried that I wouldn't be able to run the marathon at all.
Thankfully my neighbor let me borrow her calf sleeves that are specifically designed for shin splints and they saved my legs!
But here's the irony of it all: while my legs felt great throughout the race, the rest of me did not. When I got off the bus at the start line, I realized that it was already much hotter than I had planned. I knew by the time I finished that it would be at least 80 degrees out and that meant bad new for me.
When Mitch and I first got married I went through a series of tests that ruled out everything except a condition called Cardiogenic Syncopy. Basically, I overheat and dehydrate really fast, and that year (2007) it caused me to get severe bloody noses and pass out several times. Since then I have learned to manage it primarily by avoiding exerting myself in the heat and staying hydrated.
So, back to the marathon. I got up to the start line and had a neat experience. It was so beautiful up there and the atmosphere was energetic and happy. I had a thought enter my mind that brought me to tears as I was standing there with 500 other crazy runners. The thought was how amazing it was that I was born 12 weeks premature, not expected to live, and yet now I am standing here waiting to run 26.2 miles. What a miracle! I cried thinking of how good Heavenly Father has been to me, how I was meant to be here, and how grateful I am for it all. It was a spiritually uplifting moment for me, one that reminded me how real God is and how involved He is in my life.
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| At the start line. |
Since I knew it would be hot I decided to run the first half as fast as I could without overdoing it and try to get as far as I could before it got too hot. I ran the first half in 2 hours and 15 minutes, which is good for me since I'm a slow runner. I was excited at this point because at that pace it meant I would meet my goal which was to finish in under 5 hours. I was thinking I would finish in 4.5 or even 4 hours and 45 minutes, so I was happy. I was drinking water and/or Gatorade at every single aid station, as well as GU and whatever else they offered me.

Fast forward to mile 17 and I was worried. It was hot and I was feeling it! I went in a port a potty, sat down, and instantly everything started spinning. You know how you can have several thoughts in rapid succession in a very short amount of time? Well my thoughts were, "I'm going to pass out in the port a potty with the door locked!" and "No one will know I'm in here" and "What if I fall in the poop? Sick!" and "I've got to get out of here, NOW!"
After that I realized that I could either take it WAY easy and actually finish the race, or I could push myself to meet my goal and probably end up passing out and being picked up in an ambulance and never finish the race at all. That seemed a bit dramatic, so I kept trying to run. I got to mile 20.5 before I realized I wasn't being dramatic, but that I indeed was on the verge of passing out. I would stop and put my head down often, and then feel better for a bit, but I really started to worry about myself and decided I better just walk the last 6 miles. I wanted to cross the finish line, regardless of how long it took me, and I did not want to end up on an ambulance. So I walked the last 6 miles.
That sucked! It really did. It was almost 90 degrees by this point, and while my legs felt fine, my feet did not and every step hurt. I passed an aid station run by a dental office with a sign that said, "Make your teeth happy, happy happy!" and I thought to myself. "You know, my teeth are the only things on my body that don't hurt right now." Okay, so that
was dramatic, but you get my point: I hurt, I was hot, and I just wanted to be done. The last 6 miles felt like they would
never end.
Eventually I did cross the finish line. When I saw the 26 miles sign, I cried. Mitch and my friend Liz Whitesides were waiting for me at the finish line (the kids had slept over at my parents' which I was grateful for). I cried again when I saw them, and I did actually run across the finish line, then went straight to first aid where I sat and they put ice packs on me. By this point I was physically sick and felt very much like I did in 2007 when I would pass out or at least get faint and sick to my stomach.
It was a weird feeling to be done. I started out the morning so grateful and excited for the experience. Towards the end I was so sad that I had worked so hard, and due to something out of my control, the weather, I would not be able to meet my goal. It helped so much to see Mitch and Liz. Mitch was so sweet. He brought me a protein drink, ice packs, Kit Kats, Skittles, and water. He thought of everything! Liz gave me a nice gift of Great Harvest treats and a bath bomb. She is such a sweet friend and helped me stay motivated during my training.
Now that it's all over, I'm glad I did it. I learned a lot about myself during this whole process, and I actually stuck to something, even when it got hard. I could have quite halfway through when I got injured, but I kept going. I think I found a new level of perseverance within myself that I didn't know existed.
The recovery was hilarious. I looked absolutely ridiculous trying to hobble around, and stairs were a complete joke. Layla didn't practice piano for a couple days because I couldn't bring myself to walk up or down the stairs. Also, I had a stomach ache for several days after and felt lightheaded with headaches that came and went until the following Wednesday. It was not fun. I feel 98% recovered now, but I do not feel like running again, so I've been doing the elliptical and that feels fine.
However, now that it's all over, I can truthfully say that I will never run another full marathon. I'll stick to half marathons and 5Ks. Kudos to all those who can easily run that distance, and perhaps on a cooler day I could do it too, but the training takes SO long and it is hard on my body, so I'll stick to shorter distances, thank you very much. :)